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Thank God for Amphetamines
Earlier this week, I was formally diagnosed with Attention Deficit Disorder by a psychiatrist. I am forty-one years old. Looking back, I have been struggling with this for my entire life. My adult life has been plagued by an inability… Continue reading
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The Week Ahead Tarot Spread
Today, I drew cards to give me some ideas about the coming week. As far as I know, this is an ordinary week for me. I work Monday to Friday at my pedestrian job in corporate IT; on my personal… Continue reading
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Escapism Via Cruise Ship
I have always been an escapist. As a child, I sought escape by hiding among the trees, climbing up to the top or concealing myself in the branches at the bottom of the giant pines in the yard. I dreamed… Continue reading
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A Beacon of the Weird in a Broken World
Ever since I began diving into the world of The Weird, I’ve encountered odd little synchronicities everywhere. Today’s synchronicity is brought to you by Meditations on the Tarot and my mood disorder. I have been struggling with my mental health… Continue reading
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Book 2 of 2026: The Road
If you’d have asked me two weeks ago when The Road was published, I would have guessed the 50’s. There’s something about the apocalyptic, vaguely post-nuclear landscape of The Road that strikes me as deeply rooted in the visceral fear… Continue reading
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Book 1 of 2026: Are You Mad at Me?
I’ve always enjoyed pop-psychology books. Psychology in itself is a super interesting subject, but academic psychology can be dry and unapproachable. Pop psychology books are a great way to explore the world of psychology without having to dive in to… Continue reading
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Happy 2026!
2025 is over and 2026 has begun. I’m not normally one for retrospectives. I’ve spent a lot of my adult life thinking about mistakes and miscalculations I’ve made, wasting thousands of hours of mental energy on endless rumination, marinating in… Continue reading
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Book Completion: The Three Body Problem
The holidays are always a little rough for me. This year, I’ve been working on my escape via books and reading. It’s December 21 and I’ve read about five books this month already, with several more in-progress on the periphery.… Continue reading
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Intro to I Ching Reading
On the advice of my long-dead grandfather (he didn’t talk to me from Beyond; he advised me when he was alive and I’ve only followed through now, decades later) I recently purchased a copy of the I Ching. The I… Continue reading
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